Been a while

Everything seems to be dying down, I dunno why...

I haven't seen 'It' for a while...and I haven't seen anymore of its little minions.

Which frankly is starting to worry me. I'm starting to wonder if I'm just cracking...

Or if they just don't think I'm much of a problem anymore.

I keep dreaming about Stella though....she seems to be getting further and further away....and her face is...corrupted, its the only way to describe it.

My migraines are getting worse though, and I think the paranoia is getting to me. I'm looking paler in the mirror. More gaunt.

Maybe I've just got a bit of the flu.

Probably ǹờth̶̵̛i̕ņģ̷

Found a note taped to my front door.

Seems to all be a bunch of gibberish, except for the last sentence.

And I checked, and double checked the spelling on this one, so I think its right. Though of course I might have derped again.

" L'r hmvvi L pwttmo cqbu xgvrocqm, L pwt mtbi hwi ocwo img wmq kmlta fqbb. Fcwo bloobq vqhlhowtpq L pwt mxxqv mgohlkq mx rqhhwaqh lh sglpzbi holxbqk, hm ztmf ocwo lx fq pmrq xwpq km xwpq, fq flbb cwrq om xlaco. L uvwi ocwo img qtk ri hgxxqvlta, mtq fwi mv wtmocqv.

L flbb ovi wtk aqo rmvq rqhhwaqh on img fcqt ocq olrq lh vlack.

~ ?

When Light becomes Black all becomes clear "


So something'll happen at sundown? Is my life about to get flipped, turned upside down?

Something tells me I won't end up the prince of bel-air.

almost like clockwork.

Everyday...at about 8:00 PM, It appears in the back yard. Staring and watching. Sometimes It's closer. Sometimes It's further away.

I think It's just toying with me. Watching to see if I crack.

I've taken to checking the laptop daily. But the motherboard seems to have gone bad, I can't even start it up anymore.

I got an e-mail today.

I'm not sure what to make of it. Its horribly misspelled, like whoever wrote it was on drugs or something.

Heathen, You have oomed yurself to be the ext sacrifice to our maser.
Even now we tare afer you. waching yu. erhaps even in your home.
Live a life of egret. then de. rieving for er. Or don.
Ponder your houghts, you plns, before you go razy. Or crac

Make your choice. erhaps our beoved mastr will grnt you your tella onc again
Everyone dies sooner or later. when will you?

I noticed the very 'subtle' hint on the left. HELP ME.

My head's been killing me lately. I've...I've seen it again...just watching. I've heard all the insults, the idiocy. "Oh no Its staring at you and doing nothing! Aaaah!" but you don't understand. Its gaze...Just, its piercing gaze. You feel fine, then suddenly you feel like someone has replaced your blood with ice. Something is wrong, just very very wrong. Then you see it, and your blood somehow gets even colder. Add to that my migraine whenever I see it, and I'm having trouble focusing. I might have to leave home soon. I don't know where I'll go, but I can't get my friends and family mixed up in this.

Merry Christmas, and a happy new year.

I hope you all had good holidays. I had a good bit of relaxation and rest, migraine aside. Only sign of activity has been that someone poured weed killer all over my parents flower bed, and that might just be one of the assholes in my neighborhood.

I suppose I should at the very least outline my current theories...That way the...lets see...two or three of you out there that give a crap can tell me how stupid I am to even think this way.

First theory goes on the 'Slender Man', the more and more I think about It, the more I wonder if the Tulpa effect is what created It, or if It was here all along, and just gained strength afterwards.

Regardless, It, is pretty much...wrongness, incarnate. Like It's a man shaped hole in reality or something.It gains strength from our imaginations, our fear, and our belief in It. It is proof of the strength of the human imagination and subconscious.

This ties into Harry's and my...sighting of Stella...Or what Harry remembered Stella to be. He said he'd been hallucinating her previously, but he hadn't seen her for a long time...

Also, It, took a major interest in her. Like it hadn't happened before, that It had never seen anything like her. We seemed to be momentarily forgotten when It was staring at Stella....or...not-Stella...or...or just a hallucination. I have no clue what the fuck anymore.

What if Its a black hole in our subconscious? Only instead of gravity and pulling in everything, including light, It pulls in our subconscious power. Basically becoming a gigantic well and font of the power of our very subconscious. When people see that....thing, they're not bothering imagining, unless they're imagining what exactly It is going to do to them.

Maybe that's why every single encounter is different for different people. One person imagines what it would do, and it alters itself to match that subconscious 'choice'. People who focus more on It's more unearthly appearance gets the tentacles for arms and other weird shit. People who dread the observation/stalking of It, usually sees just the tall suited faceless man, staring almost casually, almost out of curiosity. It may also simply be masking itself in our subconscious fears. Groups of people see the same thing because our 'subconscious' strengths differ from person to person, and It focuses on the strongest source of 'energy'.

If it is this huge 'subconscious energy well', What about other things? I'm not sure if there has ever been someone who suffers from hallucinations, having one during an encounter with It. Is it possible that the hallucination that Harry suffers from, was gaining strength from that subconscious power? Maybe that's why we both saw it.

As for the 'Zombie Powder', my current theory is that its a...'It repellent'. Or something along those lines. If It feeds on Subconscious, something like the powder could mess with the brain chemistry, causing the subconscious 'fuel' to diminish. Maybe it doesn't see with 'Eyes' like we do, maybe It focuses on the subconscious energy that sustains it. Without that source, It doesn't notice us as readily.

Of course the downsides are many.
A: Its a very complex mixture, not easy to get a hold of.
B: Its POWERFUL. If you don't mix it properly, or properly calculate the weight of the subject its used on, it will most likely kill you.
C: You're going to not be moving for a while, until the paralysis effects wear off, leaving you vulnerable to anyone who comes along.
D: I kind of doubt its going to be any help against 'Proxies' of It, who are humans simply under Its sway. I have a feeling that if one of Its servants alerts It to someone being where It isn't sensing anything, It will investigate, and likely not in a friendly 'I wonder whats over here' kind of way.